DREAM JOURNAL

I, for whatever reason, am a weird little object. I don't know what, but I am something small and electronic. and I am trapped in a goddamn bright red bouncy house prison cell. I escape and i am thrust into doom-style navigating through this maze of a bouncy castle while the owner; Peter Griffin from family guy, is chasing me. God knows why. I successfully escape and then I climb up a mountain, where I get stuck in a time loop of climbing for awhile, reaching the top multiple times before being sent back down. One of the times has pee in the snow for some reason. No clue why. One time I find a wise anthro squirrel at the end of a cliff, another time I find that on the other side is a public pool with lots of cobblestone for the structures. Thats it. But Peter was insanely terrifying in the dream for no reason, he looked normal but he completely struck fear into me.

Not much detail here, my brain was essentially 'youtube pooping' to create its own Arrested Development episode, and every now and then in the middle of it my brother kept waking me up IRL asking if i wanted to be 'dogpilled'. it was strange

(Copied from discord)
i was trying to fall asleep at like 11-12 or smthn and before i was fully asleep i guess my head was like "idk have a dream where your mouth is full of blood but you cannot spit it out or swallow it youre just stuck you cannot do anything and no one notices that anything is even wrong" like what the fuck was that ive never had anythijng that fucking weird before
IT WAS FRUSTRATING
like it felt like drowning but i wasnt actually dying in the dream or anything so it was just me trying to get someones attention to try and help me and no one fuckin reacted and then i opened my eyes bc i was still in like, a zone where i could wake myself up so i was like "fuck this"

(Copied from discord)
* Weird battle between me and markiplier? Only sort of though. Was a building thing. I made a cringe tardis with a bunch of “stickbugged” inside
* Vividly remember a neon “peanut butter sandwich” from the markiplier thing, which was just minimalist and essentially just a 3D rectangle that was layered pink-yellow-pink-blue-pink, sometimes without the middle pink.
* A part where me and another person were rescuing someone(? Don’t know who anymore) in the basement caves of markipliers building, Minecraft styled.
* Caves were hard to describe other than fucked up caves, eventually there was very hilly garden areas where we kept facing off challenges. One of them was a weird choir/piano-organ creature that looked like that one character from TPOH, there was three of them and we always failed on that step until we figured out how to defeat them via the third creature which we had to open and press a piece of paper to the inside of them softly. This part I remember seeing in another dream but I cannot remember the other dream
* I think I was my oc En the entire time? Or at least I was also neon based. The next bit of the dream was either a real game that I’ve forgotten or it was a recurring dream because it was very familiar. But I was a cat this time. There was someone somewhat like my OC 193, who I know I beat up somewhere in the earlier dream, but he was just absolutely fawning over me for some reason. The game we were in involved trying to somehow get groceries by stealing them, but first we had to somehow get them because the old women running the store were finicky about it, plus would often refuse to get things off high shelves. It was very fun ngl in the previous dreams I remember but this one was more so just fake-193 doing anything I asked him to because I beat him up earlier and I guess he liked that???? I remember him going through a whole lot just to get a giant bag of pocky for me. Like I told him to say “yea I’m a cake maker and I need a LOT of pocky for this cake. Also during it before I spotted the pocky it was a lot of me moving around and asking fake-193 if he liked my art because apparently I felt inadequate after the weird vs markiplier thing even though that was building not drawing. To which most of the time he was apparently just neutral
* Weirdly enough this was the only time in one of the store game dreams where we won and as we drove off I could feel the keyboard buttons in my head Bc the driving mechanics were awful. We won and the game starts over for the next player, who was markiplier, and then I woke up.

(CW: ANIMAL DEATH/NEGLECT AND PARENT DEATH MENTIONS)

The first dream is the gerbil one. It always starts feeling like a normal day, at some point I go downstairs, I have no reason to go downstairs because IRL and in the Dream I'm aware that downstairs is completely torn up and there's nothing of use down there. I just sort of walk down for pointless ADHD reasons. But as I turn the corner I find out a bunch of my gerbils are still alive! But the condition of the cages is exactly what you'd expect for a cage thats hosted gerbils without being cleaned for a few years, it's extremely disgusting. It's always far more gerbils than I've ever owned at once (I've only ever owned 3 maximum at the same time, sometimes in the dream there's upwards to around 7 gerbils.) The gerbils are all alive but they're skinny and malnourished, dying. Sometimes details change between occurences, sometimes the gerbils are all alive, sometimes one or two are dead, sometimes I walk in on them fighting to try and eat eachother. Everytime I simply just sit there and stare at the problem, stressing myself out and crying my eyes out that I somehow 'didn't realize they were alive' and for letting them get to that state, but I never try to fix the problem, at least not completely, sometimes I will give them food but I won't clean the cage at all, I just sit there and cry at the gerbils. Sometimes I pick one up and pet them, then put them back into the cage where they continue to be doomed.

The other dream involves my mom. Like the previous one, it always starts feeling like I'm actually awake and it's a normal day. At some point I will recieve news that my mom is actually still alive. Sometimes it's someone telling me, sometimes I find her on my own, rarely the dream will start after i've already found her. Regardless, whenever I find her, wherever I was at the moment doesn't matter, I'll suddenly be in a pseudo-scotland type location (where my mom was born, Glasgow specifically as i've visited there before), sometimes I'll be inside and I can only tell because 'vibes', but if I'm outside everything will look like what I remember of glasgow, but lots of things lack color and are just white, like the texture is there but the color has been drained, with some spots of color. Usually I'll be confronting her in a living room, wondering where's she's been all these years. She never says anything, or if she does, I can never remember what she says. But I can always tell regardless that the answer is "I just didn't want to come back.", whether implied or i just feel it. Her hair is never correct, it's never her real hair or even the wig she had while she had cancer irl, always something new, like she's trying to hide who she is. Sometimes there is no answer, or it feels like she wanted to come back. No matter what, I still end up leaving the room feeling shattered at the end each time, and I run through the previously mentioned white streets looking for nothing. Then it usually ends.

I seemingly wake up to a normal day, but sitting in the green chair across my room is Ted Cruz, who actually morphs into a few different politicians the entire time he's in the chair, but mostly looks like Ted Cruz. I complain about right wing politics to him and he shrugs me off, says I have bigger problems, I look out my window and there's Hillary (or Trump, Can't remember) exiting a limo, and they start to try and beat down my front door. I do not remember the end if there was one

All I remember about this dream was entering a huge building made of what looked like Lapis lazuli, but specifically the Lapis Block texture from the minecraft dokucraft texture pack. Running the school was Palkia and Dialga in seperate offices. I remember talking to them but not anything about what we said.

This dream for whatever reason has stuck with me all these years, probably because the visuals were just so memorable. Exact details are lost, but it involved me lying to some girl in how i envisioned High School. Don't know what about, I think it was about stealing something or saying I'd visit and then didn't. It doesn't matter, she never comes back up, she's just one of the memorable parts and implied to be involved somehow even though she doesn't return. I head home late at night, and when I get to my yard, the car at the house across the street waves its tire at me like a hand, then a massive red truck tries to run me over out of nowhere but fails as I dodge. As I attempt to escape by going inside, I open the house door and there are millions of little tripod mcdonald's toy looking aliens crawling around in lines like ants. I can't remember the rest of the dream afterward.